Loveliness and compassion
Notoriety and success
Abstinence and purity
Supposed pairs like these always seem to be linked, made into a combined whole. People continually say to me that compassion is unnecessary without love, or that to be successful you need to have notoriety. And to be pure you need abstinence from what some believe to be wrong.
Honestly it pisses me off, the yes and no, the this and that of it all. The black and white defineables that people insist on shoving into my thoughts. You don’t have to abstain to be full of light; to be true…. And you definitely cannot justify a lack of compassion due to unfamiliarity…. Due to a lack of knowledge. If you’re an ass admit it, and if you don’t understand the value of yourself do not pull others into your pit of delusion; of mental blindness. Secure your right to be this and that, and a little bit of this. Make others know of your value and conviction, of your littered emotions. Fucking own it.
I wish I could, but lately… Between my lack of sleep and creeping anxieties I’ve found that I’m just a little less than this… Than that; what I want to be.