(release)

Right now it’s not as if I really want to die… But I don’t want to deal with anything, with walking talking… I don’t even want to fucking breathe for it feels as if I’m sucking up nothing but the putrid fumes of others. I’m tired, bored disheveled and unimpressed with everything that I see…. Save for one but even she can’t escape my heads frothing delusion as she gets wrapped up within my own falsely concluded melodramatic fantasies…. My fears and terrors find my only good and thirst for its purity and angelical beauty. It scares me how vividly I feel without fair cause.

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More Ups Than Downs

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My whole life revolves around this cyclical ride of extreme ups and downs. I’m erratic then I am responsible, I am depressed then I am overjoyed, everything is meaningless then everything is meaningful…. It becomes awfully fucking tiring… I become exhausted and because the good does outweigh the bad people always go on about how Ive just got to deal with the bad shit. The bad it so imcomparably disgusting though that going through that leaves a trail behind the experience of it. It seems to infect the good that I do have and muddy up it all.
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Donnys not that bad man…

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“Yknow guys you rly shouldn’t abuse Donny… Like guys, c’mon…. Man look at his dad man, he was a mean dood… Can you imagine trying to live with that? Man that would be tough… I couldn’t do it man.. not living with that creeepp… Let’s just like cut him some slack, do his thing yknow ahhhh…. Like worst comes to worst we all die but like….. I’m depressed so I don’t care… It’s okay I’ll take care of the houses… You know…. People’s residences, ill help the families.”

DR. Ben Carson
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